My little girl started school last week (pre k) and is not adjusting as well as I would like. This is a surprise, because she is such an outgoing, precocious little thing. She can walk up to anyone and make friends instantly. We’ve always laughed about how she would never have a problem making friends in school. I keep waiting for her to come home and be excited. Happier. Full of talk. But she comes home quiet. She tells me the, “kids are bossy” and tell her, “mean things.” This is a shot to my heart.
Now, I will be honest. Usually it is my child that is the bossy one and thinks it is her way or the highway. We are working on that. She needs a lot of attention and structure. She needs challenge. She needs to be pushed. I was a teacher and understand the difficulties of teaching larger classes. I’m not blaming them. I’m just not happy (like I want to be.)
I want to be happier about where I am sending her. She is my baby, my firstborn. If I am letting her go five mornings a week I want it to be for the better. Not just okay.
It is heartbreaking to wonder if we are doing the right thing. Should she stay? Should she go somewhere else? Should I just keep her home and homeschool this year?