Asos hat; Target dress and boots (similar); American Eagle cardi; No Nonsense tights; ℅ Anjolee diamond necklace; ℅ Charming Charlie’s gold necklace (similar); bar necklace, old (similar.)

I’ve been spending the past couple of months cataloging my goals each month, something that has been good for focus (I can be terribly bad at this), but bad for my self esteem when I can’t accomplish everything I set out to do. See, I am a list maker. A goal setter. I love making daily lists, and more importantly, crossing things off. Except for the past couple of weeks I have lost my ambition to do pretty much anything. I pulled a muscle in my back and was in pain for most of March, therefore my ability to do simple daily tasks has been hindered by that. Add that in with a Winter that refuses to let up, a to do list that is piling up around me, a surprisingly nasty cold, and I find myself sort of floundering in a sea of tasks that I have little ambition to tackle. 

It’s funny how the New Year brings this whole ambition that we can all be better than we really are, more creative and organized and superior to the folks we were last year, except the people we were last year is the same as we are now, right? I mean, do people ever really change? I tend to make grand, sweeping plans in haste (no TV, ever!), yet when reality sets in and I cave in early on, I find I disappoint myself with my inability to stick to a plan. Realizing that it is freezing and an arctic tundra out there, so my kids will be watching more TV than they should right now is normal. Getting mad at myself for not accomplishing huge, unrealistic plans I set for myself is not normal. 

Here’s the thing, I want to take each day for what it is. Some are busier than others, and I can accomplish more on some, less than nothing on others. I can let things slide while I finish an amazing book; do laundry in bulk one week, none the next; clean out the house for a Goodwill run this month, and let dust collect the next. Being inconsistent is part of human nature, isn’t it? I tend to live a very scheduled and routine life because I like living in extreme order, but that doesn’t mean I can’t throw a wrench in the system every once in awhile and live free for a bit. Taking it day by day, minute by minute may be better. Being too rigid with oneself isn’t great for the soul, and I find I have a need to be more free lately.

I’m not saying I don’t have goals and list for myself. That’s just reality and necessary to life. I just don’t want to feel like a failure when I can’t get around to something in the allotted time I give myself, because sometimes a book is more interesting and I’d rather read than clean, you know? 

P.S. Completely off topic, but I am in love with this dress above I got from Target! It is 1) soft, 2) long enough to hide my radioactive white legs, and 3) comes in a couple of really cute patterns. I sized down for a more body con style, but love it with a slouchy sweater and ankle boots (and dare I say, sandals maybe SOON?) Seriously, Target is killing it right now. 

Also, I’m in the process of putting together a (non sponsored) self tanner review this week, something I haven’t done since this post I did about Million Dollar Tan last year.  I saw a couple of places online shouting out the amazingness of Tanwise and had to try it out for myself. I will let you know the pros and cons of it and show before and after pics as well. 

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Happy Monday, friends;)