January for me is a really great month, as it feels so fresh and new and goal oriented, yet I don’t feel like I HAVE to do anything except for what pleases me, you know? I purchased Lara Casey’s PowerSheets this year (I did last year, too!), and they really help me break down my goals and fears and create plan for my year ahead. I highly recommend them;) Here are some things I am working on doing in the year ahead:
I taught Kindergarten and Second Grade before I had my kids, and have a Master’s in Reading Education. When I had my kids I knew I wanted to be home and devote my time to them exclusively until my youngest started school full time. Well, he starts Kindergarten next year (sigh…) Since I have a teaching license in another state, and I have a little more than two years left in Michigan before we transfer again, it makes more sense to substitute teach here until we move again. I can do that at my kids’ school, picking and choosing the days that work for me, and still have the option to be home when I need to. Being a substitute teacher really scares me, though! I’m used to having my own classroom, so putting myself out there and working again in a substitute way scares the pants off of me, which I suppose makes this a good goal to work towards. NOW, who wants to buy me a working gal wardrobe?!
I’ve been in a consistently good routine when it comes to working out for about five years now, but from time to time I either can’t (back issues), or my eating gets a little put of control (I hate portion sizes!) This year I want to be more consistent in using Fitness Pal, which I love, because it tells me exactly how much to eat and keeps me accountable, and also work on running more miles at a faster rate. I can do about 3 miles in a bout 30 minutes now, and I’d like to up that significantly.
I don’t think I do a BAD job of this, per se, but I am horrible at calling people back, returning texts, hibernating at home, and avoiding folks due to procrastination. I tend to be better at doing blog tasks than keeping up with the real people on my life, and I am working on it. I never mean to avoid people and not return calls, it just gets embarrassing to return a call after a month long wait, so then I don’t call at all, and that’s a shame. Here’s to a better year of being a better friend!
I’ve been feeling really blah about this blog for the past six months or so, and I’ve come to the realization that I am going to blog only when it feels good to do so. I am not going to stress about posting five days a week, consistently using social media, and being the best commenter/reader ever. I still love writing here and creating posts that excite me AND you, but I will do it with at the knowledge that life won’t end if I miss a post or can’t be on Instagram for five days in a row.
I added a question mark to this, because I am still up in the air about whether or not I do this! I am really intrigued, though, and since I am 34 and have never gotten one before, I may be at the age and stage of my life that whatever I chose to get I wouldn’t regret. I’d love to get something really small and dainty, and have it have something to do with my kids. Maybe two little birds on my inside wrist? An arrow? A compass? For now, I’ll just pin away some ideas on my not so secret Pinterest board, and see if the idea still agrees with me as this year goes on.
Okay, so I typically don’t really care about this, but I DO seem to care when I am out and about with my kids. I often feel like I am being judged, and react in a way with my kids that doesn’t match my parenting style. I also want to trust my inner voice more, and not ask for opinions if my mind is already made up. I always seem to do that with my husband, and then pick the opposite of what he suggests. He LOVES when I do that;)
I did this more than I’d like to admit last year, and when I add it up in my head the amount is stupidly ridiculous. I always try to work on my impulse shopping, plus buying things under pressure or when I’m stressed out or upset. I am working on wearing more of what I HAVE (something I have been trying to do forever), and only buying those things that I LOVE. Also, being less impulsive and waiting before buying things.
I spend a good amount of time reliving past mistakes and kicking myself over them, and also regretting things that have happened to me or were done to me. I want to be able to forgive more, and let things go that I cannot change.
Gah, I am the WORST at this! I will put off doing so much, like answering phone calls (see above), folding laundry, cleaning, emptying the dishwasher…basically anything that seems to take up time and effort on my part. I want to be able to get to a place where I just DO these things, rather than think about them and have them stress me out.
A couple of months ago I decided to not seek out gossip and slander via that website all of us blogger’s know about. I used to enjoy reading it, for some weird reason or another, but found that it was just really nitpick-y and wasn’t really fair or nice. I also want to seek out gossip less from those around me, and care about silly things that I have zero control over. Being judgmental and mean is not a good quality, and I’m hoping to expose myself to more of this in the coming year.
And a poem that I keep looking back at, sort of a mantra of sorts for this January? It speaks to something deep inside me, and makes me THINK.
In the dark,
Brighter than many ever see.
Through the soul’s own mastery.
And now the world receives,
From her dower,
The message of the strength.
Of Inner power.
by Langston Hughes
Tell me, what do you want to do this year (or NOT do?!)