It’s May! Or, how in the world is it MAY already? I’m constantly scared/surprised by how fast time flies, especially since my kids started school, and how freakin’ fast a school year flies by. I mean, my oldest is going into MIDDLE SCHOOL next year and I can’t even handle that. However, there is still about 4 weeks of school left here, and then it is summer break and I’m going to have to remember how to be a full-time mom again (!) I foresee many beach days ahead, as well as a big and a couple of small trips to plan. All good things, yes?
What April taught me
*My April Intentions post HERE
I learn so much about myself every month when I set these intentions, and I learn the most when I fail them. Which is often! I rarely accomplish even haf of them each month, and that teaches me how to reevaluate what I am intending, as well as readjust for the month ahead. My goal is to always be growing and learning, and when I fail I am learning more about myself.
One intention I failed miserably at was to only but 4 things in April. I held strong for about 2 weeks and then it all went downhill. I have tried and failed to limit my shopping many, MANY times over the years, and it always rebounds. The problem lies in that I love shopping and getting new things, it is a part of my job to show new things on a regular basis, and that I often feel guilt over buying stuff. I do want to preface this by saying, I never buy stuff we cannot afford, I use my earnings to shop for most of my job related purchases, and I would never/have never compromised my family financially by shopping. Depending on what a person considers a lot or a little, you may think I buy too much or too little. It is all a personal preference. I love clothes and styling them and have built a career around this. I am slowly learning over the years to shop in a precise way, meaning I contemplate what I buy based on uniform dressing and a Capsule Closet formula, and I am very deliberate in my purchases. Some months I buy more, some months I buy very little. I just truly love seeing what is out there, researching the best deals, and showing YOU how to work them into your life if that is something you are in need of.
My takeaway on all of this? Limiting myself drastically (in all areas of my life, not just with shopping!), does not work for me, ever. I can do very small chunks of restrictions if needed, but making grand goals to not shop for long periods of time sets me up for failure. I have had to realize that I am a smart woman, I know when it is appropriate to buy things and when it is not, I have never jeopardized us financially, ever, and to trust myself on a daily basis to honor that.
Moving on! Always, learning and growing as a human, right?
My May Intentions
- This is so hard for my hard-core, planning, agenda loving self, but I am going to loosen up a bit on how I schedule my days. A couple of weeks ago we went on Spring Break and had a great time, but I came back super tired and kinda burnt out. But, I hit the ground running and the Universe basically showed me in no uncertain terms that I needed to rest. (You know, where ALL the things keep going wrong and everything seems so hard? That’s a wake up call to re-evaluate!) You guys, I am really hard on myself. I set big, lofty goals (see what April taught me above!), and get so disappointed when/if they don’t happen. I get so into crossing off items from my to do list that I don’t enjoy what I have in the moment. So my intention is to focus on ONLY my big important goals, and only do those. I may have 10,0000 things I think I have to do, but only 3 that are super important to me and my dreams. I’m going to focus on just those three.
- I’d like to plan and go on a date night with my husband! I can count on probably 2 fingers the times my husband and I have been able to get out alone over the past 6 months, and I really want to change that. With two kids in sports right now and lots of travelling for him for work, we are in desperate need of a fun night out. Also, we need to plan our Hawaii anniversary trip for this October! I. CANNOT. WAIT.
- Lastly, I want to get more in tune with my inner guidance system and my intuition on a daily basis. Lately I have been just coasting and I want to journal/meditate better in the mornings and be more intentional with days.
That’s it! I’m looking forward to this month of endings (school and specifically elementary school for my daughter), and learning a bit more about how I can become a better person each and every day.