I’ve been at a stand still for the past week and a half, I guess. In case you missed it, we moved at the beginning of June and have been renovating our new house. In the meanwhile, we are living in a tiny Airbnb and spend our days working on the house and getting that ready. It was fast and furious for a bit, and now we are just waiting for the last big things (kitchen and flooring.) It is a lot of hurry up and wait. We actually move in there this week, but can’t get our furniture delivered for another two weeks. We will live on air mattresses and lawn chairs and that’s about it!
We have done this before so we are used to it, but being used to beng uncomfortable doesn’t really make it better, you know? Just because I am familiar with moving and transition and living out of a suitcasse doesn’t make it easier.
I miss our normal routine. I miss cooking and eating at our table. I miss my couch and my bed. I miss being surrounded by my things. I miss making my smoothies in the morning. I miss my old gym and being active. Nothing is familar and that is hard.
It’s weird to be in transition. To not be doing what I want to do. It is really, really uncomfortable.
But you know what? I know being uncomfortable is good. It’s what grows us. I can get into ruts, because I like routine and order so much, but that can hinder how we grow. I know that these 6 weeks or so of work and living out of a suitcase means years of happiness in the home of our dreams. I have the vision of what I want, and know that I have to gracefully handle being out of my element for a bit to get there.
It’s okay to be uncomfortable.
To not know the plan.
To not be clear on what us next.
I’m really uncomfortable right now.
Right now I’m focusing on my daily intentions. Picking a word or two for how I want to FEEL each day. I’m focusing on just taking deep breathes when I feel overwhelmed. I’m focusing on the big picture versus small annoyances. And I am giving myself the slack I need to not be productive and be an achiever, and to just survive right now. There are season’s of growth and change and I am in one. Mentally and physically.
It’s okay. I’m okay and you are, too. No matter what the road ahead looks like.
We’ve got this.