I took these photos the other day after I had done a workout video.
At one point my leggings had rolled down and my stomach was exposed and I just casually noticed the difference in how I look depending on how I sit, my clothing placement, etc. It was interesting to notice how our bodies change during the days, weeks, years of our existence. And also, how we place what we look like at any given moment over how we want to FEEL.
I read this quote in this book last week and it spoke to me….
“There are two things it would benefit you to do here, and those are to get really comfortable with the body you’re stuck with and get really comfortable with that body changing, because it’s only going to do so from here on out. Some of that change will be within your control; most will not. Don’t let yourself be so attached to one way of appearing that you make your inevitable growth and aging even harder on yourself.”
Man! That really got me.
How many years have I (you) wasted trying to force things that we could have been more relaxed about? Resisted what was natural? Trying to “bounce back” after a baby, starve yourself for a special event, said no to things that would have been really special in the name of “fitness” or “diet?”
One of the things I am working on is to be comfortable with what is, right now. I’ve both never been more happy, yet there are many moments where I have to just observe things that have changed for me, and instead of being negative, I look at it as on outsider would. Curious. Observant. Open.
I notice my stomach is a bit more round.
I notice my thighs touch all the time now.
I notice I have more cellulite.
I’m curious about what it feels like to let go of the restrictions I have kept for myself for 20+ years and how my body has responded. Nothing is good or bad, it just IS. I’m curious about the guilt I experience around food and exercise levels. I am doing what feels good in my soul, but it requires me to surrender a lot of my rules and thoughts about myself.
I’m learning to say, “I am uncomforable right now as I learn, and that is okay.”
Our bodies are ever changing. What my body looks like when I wake up, versus when I head to bed, is pretty different. My body changes during the month depending on my cycle. Sometimes my physical self feels light as air, and other times it feels heavy as lead. I am looking at my body as ever changing and not static, something I punished myself a lot for in the past.
Also, I (and you) are not your body. My body is a part of me, but if someone took out your heart and you saw it, you would say, “That is my heart,” but you wouldn’t say that it was YOU. The YOU that observes and lives is separate and unique on it’s own.
What are your views on how bodies basically never stay the same, and how has it affected you?