So far this Summer has been equal parts everything it should be, coupled with many moments of pure frustration. Which sounds weird, because honestly, we have done so much, and been so busy, and it’s barely July. Part of it comes from my husband having been away and doing the kids and life on my own, and the other part is the adjustment of having my kids home 24/7 with no time for myself.
It’s interesting, that for years I did just this, the kids and I together all the time with no school or anything to break it up, plus we had longer deployments. I’m blessed now that they are older and they can do so much on their own. I can say, “go get your pajamas on and brush your teeth,” or “Get in the car and buckle up!” It’s the little freedom’s that make a big difference as children grow. You trade more hands on tasks (diapers! sleep training! potty training! buckling in car seats endlessly!), for other tasks that can be just as equally exhausting. We go, from the time they wake up in the morning, till I put them to bed, and I’m tired. This is the first Summer where there are no naps (I mean, I DID make it till my youngest was four and a half for it to end, so there’s that!), and I’m feeling it. I fall into my bed at night, and despite my craving for me time, with no other thoughts in my head or requests by the second, I fall asleep instantly.
Sometimes as a mom you don’t want to be caught complaining. I have two, healthy children, I can stay home with them and devote my time solely to them, they are smart and fun and everything I wished they would be and more. Except, it IS hard. I can go days not speaking to anyone over the age of six. Sometimes they bicker so much I want to scream at the top of my lungs for them to stop. Or they spill their drinks AGAIN, hit their sister AGAIN, get up out of bed AGAIN, and I want to crawl in a hole and hide. This is my reality. Lots of deep breaths and closing my eyes, waiting for that last bit of patience to appear. Hiding in my bathroom with the shower running, looking through Instagram, or turning up the music in the car so I can’t hear their arguing.
Sometimes I take it minute by minute, and others days we have glorious hours where life is exactly as it should be, and often these come just in the nick of time. Just when I’m about to lose it, contemplate running away, or head to bed at 4pm, I remember those moments. I need them to show just what I am working towards, because sometimes I can’t tell. It’s like I’m in a dark box and I can’t see the light.
Until suddenly, it’s lifted off, and I’m blessed again.
P.S. The What She Wears monthly link up is live again, and the theme is Red, White, and Blue! Come link up your looks and you could be featured next week as a fave! Please make sure you are following one of the hosts (me, Rebecca, Brandi, Jalynn, Dawnelle), and go visit the other links as well. Lets make friends;)
Oh hey! Happy Tuesday to YOU! There are so many elements that I really like about this look today, it’s one of those that really felt like ME (and trust me, I come home at the end of the day a lot and wonder why on EARTH I wore something;) Let’s dissect this look, shall we?
1) I am smitten with these reflective lens sunglasses that I ordered from Forever 21 a month or so ago for $5.80 (I know.) They are sold out right now, but the reflective lens trend can be found anywhere and I think they make every outfit better. I currently have one pair of nice sunglasses I got for Mother’s Day last year (Classic Wayfarers!), and I am thinking of investing in the name brand versions of these aviators. What do YOU think I should do?
2) These high heeled sandals are fun because they have really cool, modern block heels, and they also feel so soft and supple (considering the price and where they came from!) I saw them on another blog (darn that Sydney and her persuasive ways..), and originally wanted the black, but I had too many black shoes already and went with the tan. I don’t think you can ever have enough nude/tan colored neutral shoes (blame it on the new/improved Kim K?) I used to really fall for crazy footwear in bright colors and funky shapes, but find lately I am drawn to simpler styles and colors. (Like these black strappy heels I bought at Kohl’s this weekend!)
On that note, I’ve been stalking this retro, red and white polka dot bathing suit by Esther Williams for quite some time. I’ve read all the reviews, looked at all the pictures, and finally bought it this morning! I wanted a bathing suit that was appropriate for family time by the lake, could be worn around my children and friends at the beach, yet didn’t make me feel like a matron. I can’t wait till it comes in the mail, I will let you know how it fits and looks!
Do you have a polka dot look that you want to share? Link up your look below and you’ll have the chance to be featured in your very own post next week as one of my faves!
Some may not think that having Beetlejuice striped pants are a must, but I love that they are as simple as wearing a comfortable pair of jeans, yet look fun and interesting and a little bit edgy. Adding in some studs and touches of red made it all the more better to me. Here’s the thing. Whenever I wear something a bit more out there, I pair it will all black. It tones it down and makes it more wearable. So there’s my rule for wearing outrageous clothing/accessories…pair it with black and you will feel more comfortable while wearing it. I promise!
Now it’s your turn to show me how you style STRIPES! Link up your look below and show us how YOU wear stripes. Next week my co hosts (Dawnelle, Rebecca, Jalynn, + Brandi) and I will also each pick our personal favorites and show you off. You can post a collage or a style post, it’s up to you! Please don’t forget to link back to one of us in your post, and visit others that link up, too. That’s how link ups work;)
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I’m the kind of girl who…
>Trudges in snow up to her knees with a tripod, camera, and boots for outfit pictures, then freezes her fingertips off and gets home only to find the settings were wrong on her camera and NONE of the photos were usable. Cue intense swearing and face palm.
> Can’t watch people put on or take off socks, it literally puts shivers down my spine.
>Was (and still may be) obsessed with Twilight when it came out. I also still secretly hope Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart work things out.
>Has a complex about neatness and order, yet I clean my house less than I should. I think there are dustballs behind every door in my house and you probably don’t want look in my bathrooms. Ew.
>Wears eyeliner and mascara everywhere, the gym, at home alone, everywhere. I just feel better in it. I’m also always in sweatpants if I am home. ALWAYS.
>On that note, I rarely ever leave the house in sweatpants or anything else, and would never wear sneakers unless I’m working out. Even if I am only going somewhere quickly I get dressed, then change back into my sweatpants the minute I get home. The exception? Car rider line at school. I mean, no one even sees you then, so why bother wearing real clothes?
>Gets obsessed by author’s, subjects, etc…, and will research and read everything about it until there is no more to find. I’m a stage five online stalker.
>Is a creature of habit. I will eat the same thing for meals forever until I change one day, and then I’ll stick to that forever. I’m currently eating a Lara bar for breakfast daily (they taste like candy, yet are good for you?), and also love the super addictive Chicka Boom Pop popcorn for a snack.
>Watches QVC almost exclusively. It’s one of my happy places. I also don’t watch a lot of shows other than Girls, and a couple I watch with my husband weekly. If it weren’t for him I would probably watch very little. I DO need to have the TV on when I am home alone, though, for background noise. Then I either have on QVC or the Coffeehouse rock music channel.
>Lived in Florida for ten years, but now that I live in Michigan I feel much more at home. I think if you grow up with seasons you always sort of crave them. That doesn’t mean I don’t wish for Spring to happen SOON.
>Never wears here real engagement ring and almost always wears one of my fake versions. This is my current fave.
>Is one of the annoying folks that is a total morning person. I wake up happy and ready to go (after coffee), then fade fast as the day goes on. Left on my own I would be in bed by 10pm and up by 7am.
>Met my husband in college and knew pretty soon after dating that he was IT. I followed him after I graduated (to the Bahamas!), and had no idea what I was getting into by marrying a military guy. Now I love the stability of a great paycheck, being able to move and try new places, and the honor of being a military wife. I didn’t know what I was getting into, but I’m sure glad I took the chance.
>Loves to shop a lot (clearly!), but I also live debt free despite three college degrees (that we paid off ourselves), several cars, and other fun things like college funds for the kids and home repairs. We work really hard to live responsibly and only buy what we can pay for in cash. Tax refunds helped us chip away at all these expenses over time, and I’m so glad we paid stuff off with those.
>Never had a cell phone till I was 24, and a smart phone till 28. Thank GOODNESS there was no social media in college. I would die if any of that was recorded online. College sure was fun;)
Tell me, what kind of girl are you?
Linking up with the fabulous Holly for one of most popular link up I’ve seen in awhile;)