Stylemint tee; Lauren Conrad for Kohl’s skirt; Shoemint shoes (on sale!); Curious Creatures necklace.
Since my babies are all grown up and all (three and four, note the sarcasm!) it is fun experiencing the joy of new babies through close friends. I always love when a friend becomes a mom because they become a part of the club, so to speak. I think what shocked me the most about becoming a mother was the stuff people don’t tell you.
They don’t tell you that you might hate it at first. This baby arrives and steals your heart and requires more work than you ever thought capable. It also robs you of the life you had, and you never know how changed it will be until you experience it. You lose yourself for a bit, too, because there simply isn’t time. And you won’t even realize how different you are until much later. When I look at myself before I had my children I don’t know who that girl is. She didn’t know who she would become or how much she would have to learn. She thought that loving children and having babysitting experience would be enough. It wasn’t.
In reality it takes many, many, many sleepless nights pondering every aspect of your child’s life and never actually finding all the answers. Feeling like a failure and going to bed with tears in your eyes afraid you will mess them up for life.
I remember putting up the false front after my daughter was born. I love it! Everything is great! No, I don’t need any help! In reality it was isolating and boring and frustrating at times. It took months to feel like I had control of things (at least six) and feel like I was bonding. I look back and know that I didn’t fall instantly in love at birth, it was a growing process that took awhile to develop. Am I saying I didn’t love her? No. I’m saying that it was all very new and that love grew as she did, and as she responded to me. Reaching up and touching my face while eating, smiling at me in the morning, saying, “mama.” All these moments worked together and built up until now I look at her and my heart almost bursts with love. I adore my children, but it took a lot of time to build up that love. Day by day, hour by hour. I didn’t love motherhood at first like I thought I should, but becoming a mother is the best thing I have ever done. When I die I will be happy that I had them, for that it all I ever needed to be happy.
Now that Fall is here (in my mind only, it’s still
hotter than hell lovely outside) I find myself drawn to darker colors, leather accents and anything with a skull or studs on it. Which is kinda funny since I am probably the girliest woman in America. I am that annoying lady who still swoons over hearts, flowers, bows and anything ruffled. And pink.
So much to my surprise I have been loving and wearing this (faux) leather sleeved tee for three days now. Non stop. It is long and covers my rear (love) and adds a cool factor that, to be honest, I can’t really back up. I watch QVC, people. Non stop. And read sappy romance novels. The jig is up.
I love looking on Pinterest in the Hair and Beauty section to find fun ways to do my hair beyond the part hair in middle and curl it softly way that is saturating the market right now. I found this pin and wanted to try it out. My biggest issue is that my hair is really thin. I used to have thick hair, before I had two kids 17 months apart and it all fell out in sad clumps. Leaving me with some pretty interesting “wings” at my hairline. But I digress.
Braiding works for me because I don’t wash my hair every day (or even every other day.) When it is grungy I can braid it and it end up looking nice as opposed to greasy.
Side note! I recently started used the Wen cleansing conditioner that I have been drooling over on QVC for the past year. It doesn’t lather like a traditional shampoo, because it is not shampoo. It does clean really well and makes your hair so soft. My hair feels amazing and healthy for the first time in a long time. Plus, it doesn’t strip hair color. Total bonus. There is a learning curve for using it, so if you need help let me know…I have secrets:)
My husband thinks skinny jeans are ridiculous. He told me they “look like spandex pants from the 80’s.” Do I listen to him? No. Why, you ask? Because he wears camo shorts six days out of seven and still has tee shirts from high school. That is fine, because I am pretty partial to a man in cargo shorts and a tee (which is why my heart still goes pitty pat for my fashion challenged man…)
As for myself in skinny jeans, I think they are great with the right top. I like longer shirts and kind of treat them like tights. You must cover your rear in skinny jeans (unless you have model legs and are wearing heels. Then by all means wear them!) I do not have model legs. At all. Sigh. Until then I will cover up those child bearing hips.
And the boots? I got them at Forever 21 with a gift card from my in laws (thanks Camille!) Love the burgundy color for fall. It spices up the black and grey I typically like to wear in colder weather.
I don’t know why, but I am kind of obsessed with yellow right now. I want yellow everything. It’s like I just woke up one day and said, “I love you yellow and I will collect you till I drop” (or go broke, whichever comes first.) I have yellow lamps, throw pillows, my dining room was painted with yellow and grey accents. I can’t stop. I may or may not get that Coach Legacy cross body purse. You know, this one. Yes. I love it. It makes me happy. Yellow chevron patterns make me happy, too. And yellow ikat. I may need to devote a Pinterest board to my yellow obsession.
I think yellow looks amazing paired with grey as well as electric blue. And just about any other color, except for black. That brings me back to my sorority days when dressing in those colors never meant good things. Ba ha ha ha…(evil laugh.) Just kidding….
Oh! One more obsession: these. The gold ones. With skinny jeans and a huge tunic sweater. A super girly version of sneakers. Right up my little style alley.
Old Navy cardigan (similar); Target jeans (similar), necklace and boots (similar); Stylemint tee (on sale!)
Sometimes I do blog pictures and they go straight into my computer and stay there. I wore this outfit last week for about a hour. I was supposed to go to a thing at my daughter’s school but my husband ended up working way late, blah blah blah, and I couldn’t go. So I put my yoga pants back on (win win for me!) and the shelf life of this look became very short. That’s okay, it was hotter than hell anyway and my hopes of dressing all Fall like were dashed by my extreme sweating capabilities.
Oh Fall, how I miss you. Crisp air, the smell of fallen leaves, carving pumpkins while your hands freeze, hot chocolate in a warm cup, going back to school, a lot of my best memories are wrapped up in one season. I grew up in New Hampshire and went to college at Keene State, where the changing of the seasons is amazing to see. We do get something resembling Fall here in Jax, and I’ll take it and be grateful. I have lived other places (Nassau, Bahamas and Miami) where there was no cooling off, ever. I will have to be happy for now to burn pumpkin scented candles all over my house (I buy mine at Wal Mart, they are so cheap and smell delicious!) and bake yummy treats with my babies.
This is a little bit of my week below…monkeys hanging around while I do pictures, a little girl and her first day of school, and a little boy waiting for fresh bread from the bread machine. Happy weekend!