How are YOU doing?
Las week was an off week for me. The best way I can describe it is…extremely low energy, blah mood, nothing excites me and the typical things I fill my day with don’t light me up. I just want to lay on my couch and watch movies and read books.
Some weeks are like this. They come for me every couple of months, sometimes more if life is extra crazy (like NOW with virtual school and COVID and all that 2020 is lol), and at first I would try to power out of it. I would effort SO HARD, because my achiever personality doesn’t like these days. It wants to feel energetic and creative and happy all of the time. Which is impossible—>I’ve tried.
So I surrender to it. I ask myself, “What sounds good right now?” Then I do that thing. I keep asking that and I trust that the answer I get is the right one for me. I sink into it and surrender, and then one day I wake up and I feel like ME again. I don’t beat myself up (as much) for not doing all the thigns I normally do, I know energy runs in cycles, and this is my low output cycle. My hibernate and listen cycle.
I am learning to trust myself outside of what the world tells me to be and do, and listen to what I need. Turns out, when you surrender and lean into it, you torture yourelf a bit less. It feels more loving, something I am all about right now.
What can you do to fill up your cup on any given day? How can you love yourself, and give yourself grace today?
