What do you do?
This question always trips me up.
I hear it often, it’s a question you get within five minutes of meeting someone most of the time. What “I do,” is nuanced, and often I feel like I have to dumb it down. For a long time I said, ‘stay at home mom,’ which was primarily true for awhile. Then I started a blog and that morphed into ‘influencer,’ and that is hard to explain. Mostly because I don’t like that title, even if it is accurate most of the time.
Sometimes I joke around and say I ‘sell sweaters on the intenet,” (joking about what my analytics tell me people are influenced to buy on my behalf.) Sometimes I say ‘blogger’, or “I used to teach.’ I guess I have never been comfortable explaining what I do on a daily basis because it doesn’t sound concrete, you know?
“What do you do?”
I write things from my heart and hope to heal others by sharing it. I take pictures of myself in pretty clothes, and in my underwear. I create videos and write blog posts and a newsletter, and I really hope to change how girls grow up in the world and view their value. I do this by sharing how I have changed, how I value myself, how I have found self worth. I write daily about my struggles and answer people who message me and feel the same. I learn new skills almost daily, so I can grow creatively and reach more people. I’m constantly thinking about the 12 year old me + how I can help her, and help heal the 12 year old version of YOU.
I do this while also being a mom and wife and friend. I do this even when it seems silly and I ask if it is worth it. Usually when I think it is dumb and I should get a ‘real job,’ I get messages that I changed how someone loved themselves or thought about themselves, and I keep going. I do this because not only do I like sharing fun outfits, but because this world is pretty amazing that a small town gal like me can access so many of you no matter where I live.
This is what I do.